With production that brings to mind Wale tracks with a bit of Dilla chops throughout the track, Mosez Jones discusses love and the feelings one goes through after the other party leaves and/or does something even remotely foul. The song plays like a “baby come back, I don’t think we can try again” sort of track mixed with a “damn, things went left and I can’t ever go back to the way it was, mainly because of toxicity” overtone. I love that duality, wanting someone back who was toxic because of past memories–but also wanting to be completely done with them. My favorite part of the whole thing is, aside from the concept, it’s all self-produced and self-written. As a DIY artist myself, I’ve always got a soft spot for artists of that variety (especially when their music knocks).

As mentioned above, “Perfect” reminds me of Wale lyrics and introspection mixed with alt-boombap beats. I also feel the emotions here, as I’ve been in situations like this. This is definitely a track that touched my soul (which means I had to write on it).

I’ve been in relationships where my partner started to show their true colors after the “Honeymoon Phase.” Said true colors were ugly, but I thought “hey, maybe they’ll go back to their old ways.” Eventually, after seeing that the ugliness was indeed real, I got the hell up out of there. It sucks to let someone go who, even if they’re damaging, you felt you loved and grew because of. For me, that part of the theme of the song happened with the mother of my children. Things weren’t that great, for either one of us, leading up to our dissolution about two years ago.

Earlier in 2021 and before, I said “nah, we can keep pushing.” However, I saw the damage spreading to other people and facets of both of our lives. So I made a choice between staying and failing or leaving and growing up and out. I chose the latter, something that Mosez’ narrator is somewhat struggling with due to the emotions he still feels. It could be a bit of PTSD, could be a bit of “fear of the unknown.” Whatever the case may be, our narrator still wonders what could’ve been.

All that said, if you’re going through some ish with your partner and think they can come back from being abusive (in any way)? Most of the times, they can’t. They may start to show improvement. However, there’ll always be something that sets them off to be verbally abrasive or physically violent to some degree. I’m not saying people can’t change. I mean, I changed from an F-boy to a relatively good human being. I am saying that if a person is consistently abusive, they’ll eventually go back to being abusive. Please, y’all. Seek help in situations like that. When people show you their “true colors,” believe them 9/10 times (for better or worse).

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